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| I AM A SURVIVOR! |
A lot can happen in 21 years! That's more than two decades. It's just six years shy of being half my life! Let me provide the highlights:
Overcame depression
Bought first house
Adopted children
Found love
Found myself
Loved myself good
Moved to Indiana
Found my beach
Lived near the mountains in Boulder
Raised kids
Lived a life
Now I'm not done. I'm not dying. I'm celebrating my life!
You see, 21 years ago on this day, I tried to end it. I wanted and attempted to take my own life by asphyxiation. Thankfully, I failed!
It was the one failure in my life I could accept.
Up until that moment, I told myself I had lived a long string of failures...that I WAS A FAILURE!!! I won't go into all the reasons why. It just was who I was at the time.
Today, I stand tall as a survivor.
Look at the list above of all the things I would have missed out on, namely BECOMING A DAD! I would've missed out on the two biggest blessings in my life. Their names are MERIKATHRYN DOYLE & MAKENNA DOYLE!!!
I think of all the friendships I would have never cherished, the stages I would have never rocked, all the meals I would have never cooked or enjoyed, the blog posts I would have never written, the simple everyday treasures of life I would have missed.
Goodness and mercy sure have followed me. I am humbled. I am blessed.
Here's to 21 more precious years--to explore the depths of love, who I am and who I can become. Life as a survivor is much sweeter than life as a perceived failure!!!
Thanks for being a friend, listening and celebrating life with me.
